3 posts tagged “maxie”
It's been about 6 days since Maxie passed away and it's been getting somewhat easier. Losing her is like losing a big part of my family, and I think we've all been feeling as if the house isn't the same without her. Even my two other dogs, Logan and Lex seem different. They sleep in my parents' room instead of the area where the 3 all slept. The laundry room has this eerie feeling. Like, I feel afraid to go in there or step in the area where she died. It's really sad. I remember going through the garage to get inside the house and I'd see her, but instead I go through the front door cuz it just makes me sad. It makes me think about heaven and all of that, if our spirits/souls go somewhere or when we die, we just cease to exist. I really don't know.
I've been digging up a bunch of pictures of her from my old cds (now backed up on a USB key) and it amazes me how youthful she looked. She was a really cute dog and sweet at that. I'll be adding pictures to a set on my flickr page. It's crazy how she loved me taking pictures of her. I miss her.
My mom called me at work this morning and I had a feeling when I picked up the phone what happened. I lost it. My coworker drove my car home and went back with my other coworker. I got home and she was just there. I couldn't see her that way. I actually was sick to my stomach knowing when I went inside my house she was really gone. We buried her in our backyard. I'm going to buy some flowers later to put there. It was really hard seeing her knowing she wasn't well anymore, so in a way I'm glad she's in a better place now. So I hope that she's being taken care of up in doggie heaven.
I'll never forget you Maxie. You were the first dog I ever had. You were always there and made me feel better when I was sad. I'll never forget how much you loved those doggie milk bones and how you loved to roll around in the grass. I'll also never forget how you could smell chicken from the other room and would try to find it. You lived 14 long happy years, so I'd like to think you lived a fulfilling life. You traveled as far as Canada and here in Florida. You were definitely a warrior. I love you, and I'll always miss you.
My dog Maxie seems really weak lately. She is always sleeping and lately she hasn't been eating much. I know she's getting close to dying since she's pretty old. She's about 14 years old in people years. We've had her since I was like 10 and now I'm 24 so I know and I understand that pretty soon it will be her time to go. The thing is that I've never gone through something like this and I'm really scared. Its going to be hard knowing she's not there and even though I have Lex and Logan, Maxie is my #1 dog. I think about things like what we're going to do when she goes and it makes me so sad. I'm really trying to prepare myself, but I hate thinking about it. :(
